Within these Walls
Jan. 28th, 2025 04:24 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
canyonwalkerI've fallen back into caving. Caving, as in hiding in my cave. I've become entirely too much of a home-body the past few weeks. Since we got back from Panama on the 31st I haven't been more than 10-15 miles from home. A few days I haven't even left these four walls.
My excuse for the first week or so after returning Panama was being sick. It's understandable not to want to go out and do things when you're feeling ill. Then, while I got better, Hawk's illness(es) has/have continued. I've been reluctant to go out and enjoy the kind of outdoors-y things we enjoy doing together, by myself. And yes, the weather's been nice enough to have gone outdoors. Often "but the weather's crummy" is an excuse for staying inside in January. This year January has been unusually clear and sunny, if often a smidge cooler than normal.
Another excuse has been that I'm tired. Many evenings I'm feeling kaput by 7:30 or 8pm and ready for bed as early as 9. And on the weekends I've been content to idle most of the day.
I know that avoiding things because I lack the energy is a bit of a self-fulfilling prophecy; when I do things they often energize me. For example, on Saturday we had dinner with friends and then came back to our place to play cards. Instead of pooping out early like most nights I stayed up until after 1am. Tonight we're meeting friends in San Francisco for dinner. I hope I get the same second wind of energy from it. If nothing else I'll need it for the drive home.
Update: Yes, seeing friends for dinner this evening was fun! The drive up to SF in traffic was drudgery but dinner for 5 was reinvigorating. Too bad the restaurant closed at 9 and asked us to leave at 9:15. Dratted post-pandemic new normal.
My excuse for the first week or so after returning Panama was being sick. It's understandable not to want to go out and do things when you're feeling ill. Then, while I got better, Hawk's illness(es) has/have continued. I've been reluctant to go out and enjoy the kind of outdoors-y things we enjoy doing together, by myself. And yes, the weather's been nice enough to have gone outdoors. Often "but the weather's crummy" is an excuse for staying inside in January. This year January has been unusually clear and sunny, if often a smidge cooler than normal.
Another excuse has been that I'm tired. Many evenings I'm feeling kaput by 7:30 or 8pm and ready for bed as early as 9. And on the weekends I've been content to idle most of the day.
I know that avoiding things because I lack the energy is a bit of a self-fulfilling prophecy; when I do things they often energize me. For example, on Saturday we had dinner with friends and then came back to our place to play cards. Instead of pooping out early like most nights I stayed up until after 1am. Tonight we're meeting friends in San Francisco for dinner. I hope I get the same second wind of energy from it. If nothing else I'll need it for the drive home.
Update: Yes, seeing friends for dinner this evening was fun! The drive up to SF in traffic was drudgery but dinner for 5 was reinvigorating. Too bad the restaurant closed at 9 and asked us to leave at 9:15. Dratted post-pandemic new normal.
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Date: 2025-01-29 06:21 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2025-01-29 11:21 am (UTC)Good luck dragging yourself out. The miasma of the overall world right now is....not great.
~Sor
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