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There's a phrase I see used a lot in comparisons about raising kids these days vs. how people in my age cohort grew up. Back in the day "We stayed out 'til the street lights came on." For me that isn't exactly true; my quiet, suburban neighborhood didn't have street lights when I was a kid! But aside from that little detail the idea tracks. From an early age that would send a lot of today's parents into fits of terror I was not just allowed to, but expected to, range freely around the neighborhood. The only requirement was that I be home before dinner or before it started getting dark, whichever came first.

Here are Five Things about staying out 'til the (notional) street lights came on:

1) My free-ranging started at age 7, also when I started public school. After attending public school for kindergarten I went to a parochial school for 1st and 2nd grade. It was 15 miles away, so my parents drove me. At 3rd grade I switched back to public school. I believe this connected to being allowed to free-range around the neighborhood because all of a sudden I had a lot more friends in the neighborhood.

2) We walked to school, pretty much every day. My elementary school was just under 1/2 mile away. I learned that detail at a very young age because school buses only served people who lived over 1/2 mile away. From age 7 I was trusted to walk with my younger sister to and from school. Walking to/from school was very common back then. Out of ~600 students in grades K-5 at that school, only about 30% rode buses and fewer than 10% got picked up/dropped off in cars. Hundreds of us kids walked every day— even in the rain. And yes, it was uphill both ways. 😅

3) Mom always wanted to know, "Where are you going?"— but it loosened with age. Being a free range kid wasn't a binary thing, like at 7 all rules disappeared. It happened gradually, as my parents built trust in my ability to be on my own. Mom always wanted to know where we were— but the range of acceptable answers, and the vagueness of those answers, increased over time. At age 7 it was "I'll be in the back yard," or "I'm going across the street to Lori & Benji's house." At age 8 it was, "I'm riding my bike to Jeremy's" a few blocks away. By age 10 it was, "We're biking to the movie theater."

4) This was all way before cell phones. Once we were out of the house, we were out of contact. Yeah, if we were at a person's house, my mom could call their number. In practice she never did. Never. And it was uncommon we actually stayed at a person's house anyway. Often we might hang out there for a bit then go ride bikes somewhere. We could be gone for hours. And it was okay.

5) This was a common experience growing up in the late 1970s & early 80s. I am in Gen X. No, I'm not a Boomer. These are not stories from back in the time of black-and-white TV shows, where everyone was white, middle-class, and happy. We were the generation later called latch-key kids, because when economic realities forced our mothers to start working outside the home, we had to carry house keys to let ourselves in when we got home from school and then take care of ourselves for a few hours.

canyonwalker: Mr. Moneybags enjoys his wealth (money)
Inflation's a bitch. I'm reminded of that every time I go shopping for... well, anything. Anything except a computer or big-screen TV, that is. Those have come way down in price even as their capabilities grow. But pretty much everything else in life? Yeah, way more expensive. I was especially reminded of that today when I was shopping for groceries.

Yes, groceries. One of the basic necessities. Not luxury goods like brand-name hand-bags, not discretionary items like Starbucks Caramel Machiatto Frappuccino, but actual grocery purchases down to basic meat and potatoes (and vegetables, thankyouverymuch).

A man pushes a grocery chart up an arrow on a chart marked 'inflation' (source unknown)

Compared to right around the start of Covid, so roughly 6 years ago day, prices on items up and down the aisles at the supermarket today are 50%, 100%, or more higher than before.

For example, one of the items I bought today was a 12-pack of soda. Its regular shelf price is now $13. I clearly remember it being $5 six years ago. That's a 160% increase. Yeah, soda isn't a staple at the same level that fresh produce, or meat, or bread is. But all those have gone up, too. And not just by a little bit— because I know inflation is real and is an unavoidable part living in a capitalist world— but by leaps and bounds. And, more saliently, by leaps and bounds more than the government's official rates of inflation.

What's the official rate of inflation? It's varied over the past 6 years from a low near zero to the high single digits. Overall, according to the Bureau of Labor Statistics (BLS) inflation calculator, the consumer price index (CPI) today is 26% higher than in March, 2020.

The overall CPI is up 26%. Yet basic groceries are up 50%, 100%, or more. And it's not just groceries that have shot up way faster than government official numbers. Anyone who pays for their own insurance has seen that increase an average of 10% a year over the last several years. With insurance it's not always a level !0% a year; sometimes it's a whopping 25% or 50% increase all at once, followed by a flat rate the next year. The point is, the difference between reality and government numbers is stark.

Groceries and insurance are just two major household expense items I could name. There are plenty of others that are also going up in cost, way faster than the government CPI. It makes me wonder what the hell else are they measuring? The cost of a Cray 2 (1985) supercomputer? Because computing has come waaaay down in price. You can buy a value-pak of 5,000 Cray 2s today for $800... and don't worry about where you'd put it; it all fits in your pocket! (Hint: it's your smartphone.)

The final note I'll close with is an introspection about whether complaining about inflation/"prices these days" is an old-person thing. I do often feel like I'm become a cranky old codget every time I hesitate to buy something because I remember when it was so much cheaper. But it's actually not just an old-person thing because the rise in prices has been so abrupt. The other day my sister told me that my niece, my 19-year-old niece, complains about "prices these days". She's just 19 and she remembers when everything was noticeably less expensive. ...Because it's only six years ago!

canyonwalker: Hangin' in a hammock (life's a beach)
I've been retired now for 4 weeks. Not 4 weeks officially but effectively. The difference is that I submitted notice of resignation with a proposed final work day of Friday, March 6. The company then dismissed me on on Monday, Feb. 23. So, effectively, I haven't been working for 4 weeks. Anyway, enough about official vs. effective; the thing I want to write about here is what I've done and how I've felt in the past 4 weeks.

"What have I done in 4 weeks?" is an easy question to answer. The answer is Not much. 😓 I've long planned that in retirement I'd travel a lot more. Well, in the past 4 weeks I've only taken one trip, and it was a short, weekend-sized trip. Though we took that trip during the week, avoiding the weekend-sized crowds, so there's that. We also did a short scenic drive followed by a hike in the mountains last Thursday. Again, it was the sort of trip we could have done on a Saturday or Sunday— except by doing it on Thursday we avoided weekend crowds.

The fact that my retired life is off to a slow start is disappointing, but I remind myself it's just that— a slow start. It reminds me of summer vacations as a kid.... Knowing there were only 10 weeks of freedom until the next school year started, feeling like I ought to maximize every one of those precious few days, and often just sleeping in and lazing around most of the day until the summer was half over. And you know what? While I felt guilty about that, it was also satisfying. Now, like then, decades ago, it's both satisfying and guilt-making. And I'm confident I'll shift into higher gear eventually.


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I remarked yesterday that following the start of my retirement I am cleaning out old work-related stuff— both out of my mind as well as out of my shelves. Yesterday I removed a bunch of work stuff from my mobile phone so that it would no longer live rent-free in my head. Today I tackled a bunch of the books I've had on a shelf near my desk and in piles atop my desk and at my nightstand.

I decided I would largely banish those books to "purgatory", the nickname we use for our finished crawlspace. But to do that I first had to make space in purgatory for them. I did that by moving a useful multipurpose shelf we bought when our pantry was out of commission down to purgatory.

Old college and grad school era technical books I decided to donate (Feb 2026)

I started by moving really old books onto the shelf. These books (above) were in two boxes stacked on the floor. By shelving the books I'd make better use of vertical space and thus free up floor space— for a second shelf to hold the books coming down from my office!

As I looked at these books, though, I realized I will pretty much never use them again. Ever. Seriously, I sat there for 10 minutes in the crawlspace, just staring at them, weighing what to do next.

I've remarked before I can't bring myself to throw out books. So I decided I would donate them to my local library. Among other reasons why, these technical books were $50-65 in the 1990s. To the extent the material in them is still relevant— and a lot of it is basically applied mathematics, so it is— their newer counterparts probably sell for $150-$200 new today. Each. Times the 25-30 books pictured. I'm not looking to get money for them; but by giving them to the library I hope they help students today who struggle to afford that kind of expense.

So. I hauled those books off to the library today. That freed up my shelf-space. Then I hauled these down from my home office and bedroom nightstand:

A variety of technical & sales books I'm keeping - for now - in purgatory (Feb 2026)

Okay, the bottom shelf here were already in the crawlspace. Those are mostly proceedings of ACM SIGGRAPH. I decided to hold onto those for the time being in case they have collector value. If nothing else they have sentimental value to me, as that field was my focus of study from my last few semesters of undergrad through 3 years of graduate school through the first 6 years of my post-academic career.

The middle and top shelves are the books I moved downstairs. As you scan the titles I think you can see why they're drastically less relevant in retirement. Oh, and I mentioned above not thinking books should ever be thrown out.... Well, there's one on the shelf I'd make an exception for. See if you can guess.

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It's curious that today, my last full day of work— or, more precisely, my last morning of work and first day of retirement— I did something that brought me back almost full circle to the start of my career.

In 1996 I moved out to Silicon Valley, California for my first full-time, permanent job after grad school. Oh, I'd worked for years before that; but only part-time, or in job for a defined term, like a college co-op internship or grad school research assistantship. I had a job at a brand-name tech company— it was Apple!— and it was a full-time professional job and I could have it as long as I wanted. (Or until they ultimately laid me off along with 30% of the company a few months later. 🤣)

Shortly after moving out here I saw online advertisements for a new games club forming in the area. It was named "Dukefish", as it met on Monday at the Duke of Edinborough Fish'n'Chips Pub in Cupertino. My girlfriend— who's now my wife— and I went and became regulars.

Dukefish, the games club, has moved venues several times since then. After service at The Duke deteriorated and management became hostile to us (even though their dining room, by that point, was seldom more than 25% full on Mondays) we moved to Harry's Hoffbrau in Mountain View. When Harry's in MV closed up a few years later we decamped to Jake's in Sunnyvale. We were regulars at Jake's for several years as regular membership shifted. My schedule got busy so I attended less and less often. Plus, I disliked some of the newer regular attendees. Others did, too, and the group kind of fell apart. Covid put the nail in the coffin.

But then a few years ago one of the long-time members— not as long-time as my wife or me, but still many years—brought it back to life. He merged his personal friends group with some of the gaming regulars from before Covid and got a critical mass going again. Now we meet at Holder's Country Inn in Cupertino. It's just 1/2 mile down the road from The Duke.

That's where we were tonight. In 2026, much like in 1996. At the start of my retirement, much like in the early days of my career.

canyonwalker: Roll to hit! (d&d)
I've been writing about a D&D adventure I created and DMed recently, The Collector's Menagerie. I shared in my last blog that a player noted the names/types of rooms in the mansion setting— The Hall, The Library, The Conservatory— and remarked, "This is like a game of Clue!" And how I quipped, "With monsters lurking in the rooms waiting to kill you, it's like Cursed Clue!"

The Collector's Menagerie, a D&D adventure I created (Feb 2026)

You might wonder, given the setting in a dead guy's mansion and the (twisted) murder mystery element to the story if I conceived this adventure as, "It's like Clue, but things in every room are trying to kill you." Frankly it would be awesome if that's how I came up with it. Alas, I did not. Not this time.

I have, in the past, created memorable adventures that started with the simple idea, "What if X, but also Y?" Or to be more specific, "What if something culturally familiar to us players in the modern day were the setting of a swords-and-sorcery fantasy story?" and fill it with in-jokes to see how soon the players figure it out. My greatest hits in that vein have been "The heroes traverse a magical Gate to a Renaissance Faire circa 1995 (pre-cell phones) but think it's actual early Renaissance" and "All the traps in the lich's lair form the lyrics to The Eagles' Hotel California." 😆🤣🤘

Yeah, it could have been epic if I started with "Cursed Clue". But I think it is kind of epic even though I only kind of backed in to the story being Cursed Clue.

My kernel of an idea for this adventure was simply, "Monsters are in a city mansion". I used AI to flesh out the idea. That got me to the point of it being a variety of exotic monsters (read: magical beasts and aberrations) that had escaped their cages after the owner of the house, a reclusive collector, died recently.

For the mansion itself I already had a map of an actual English city mansion I'd used as a setting in a previous game. I grabbed that to use again here. The names of the rooms on the map reminded me of a mansion map I know well from my childhood....

The board game Clue, 1972 edition

Yes, Clue! And it was because of the maps that I made the connection. The real-life mansion floor plan had rooms marked Hall, Ballroom, Conservatory, Drawing Room, etc. Those reminded me of the rooms in Clue. BTW, the Drawing Room is the Lounge. The terms are basically interchangeable in historic wealthy Western homes, indicating room a full of lavish but comfortable furniture for withdrawing to after a meal to impress guests.

Once I made the connection myself I thought about how to lean into the idea of "This is Cursed Clue". I tried to think of a way to stash treasure items, some analogue of the candlestick, rope, knife, etc., in various rooms that the heroes would need to recover to complete the challenge. Ultimately I punted that because it seemed too complex. Simplicity was one of the things I was after with this adventure idea. But I did put in some ridiculous secret doors connecting rooms on opposite sides of the map. Shh, the players haven't found those yet!


canyonwalker: Cheers! (wine tasting)
Hawk and I celebrated our joint 106th birthday on Saturday. No, neither of us is 106... but together we are! We had a party at our house. About 20 of our friends came.

Our Joint 106th Birthday Party (Jan 2026)

This pic is from before the party, when Hawk and I finished setting up the table in the dining room. As friends arrived many brough food to fill up the table. As I look at how bare this photo looks I wish I'd taken a pic when the table was full of food... though it was hard to get anywhere close to it for a good picture with 20 people spread out between the the dining room, living room, and kitchen!

Hawk and I have been doing these joint birthday parties for over 10 years now (our first was in 2014). Looking back at my journal from that 2014 party one difference I see right away is how much booze we drank. In 2014 we knocked off five bottles of wine. Last night we drank only 2. And it would've been more like 1½ except I figured, "What a shame to let this go to waste," and tried finishing off the last half bottle after everyone had left. I gave up one glass from the end.

It's not like we went light on the wine because we were all drinking beer. I opened one bottle of beer last night. I'd thought about going beer shopping ahead of the party to have more on hand. I'm glad I didn't; it would've been a wasted effort! And it's not like we were all hitting the hard stuff, either. I poured maybe 4 shots worth of hard liquor.

What's changed? Partly it's age, partly it's people moving away. A number of people I enjoyed drinking with in years past weren't here last night.

canyonwalker: Sullivan, a male golden eagle at UC Davis Raptor Center (Golden Eagle)
Three months ago I started telling the story of the church up the hill. Except for most of my life it was the mystery of the church up the hill.

An AI rendering of the church up the hill (Google Gemini, Oct 2025)

I grew up in a Catholic family, and we lived in a neighborhood where there was a Catholic church right up the hill from us. It was easy walking distance, about 3 blocks. But we almost never attended that church, at least not that I remember. Instead we were regular parishioners at the Catholic church in the next town over— a church a 20 minute car trip away, in a town we never lived in.

It always seemed strange to me, "Why don't we attend the church almost literally in our back yard—" the strip of land immediately behind our back yard was literally owned by the church— "Instead of driving to another city?" I asked my parents many times. The answers they gave never made sense. It wasn't until I was in my 40s, and my father was on his deathbed, that I pieced together the truth to unravel this mystery.

Follow me through the jump for the rest of the story.

Read the rest of the story... )
canyonwalker: Walking through the desert together (2010) (through the desert)
Years ago I got the idea, "Let's make a map of all the places we've been!" I made it a simple, DIY craft project. I bought a cork bulletin board sized about 24"x36", got a folding USA roadmap from AAA, trimmed the map to fit, then stapled it into the frame. With the cork board surface beneath the paper map we could stick colored map pins into it.

At first there weren't many pins. Understand, we started this back in the mid-late 1990s after we'd moved out to California together. Most of the original pins were where we'd lived in college and where we stayed on our cross-country drive moving to California. But over the years we've added a lot more pins. Here's a pic from a few weeks ago:

Our (original) pin map of where we've been in the US (Dec 2025)

Our homemade pin map has been a fixture in our house for a few decades at this point. For the first few years it'd be a ritual— no, a celebration— when we'd come home from a trip and add a new pin, or possible a few new pins, to the map. Over the years as we've filled in the map with pins in places we've wanted to visit we often come home without a new pin to add. So now it's a special celebration when we visit a new place and can add a pin!

(A note on pin meaning: We decided from the beginning that pins would only mark places we stayed overnight. If we marked every place we simply visited, some areas of the map would get extremely crowded. Plus, what counts as "visited" if not an overnight stay? Is there a minimum visit time, like it has to be over 3 hours to count? What if we just pause somewhere scenic to take pictures? We limited it to overnights to make it simple and sane.)

canyonwalker: Man in a suit holding a glass of whiskey (booze)
I wrote the other day that a coworker sent me a Christmas gift of a bottle of whiskey... that turns out to be a $200 bottle. Seeing the price gave me pause because I don't buy liquor that expensive for myself. Okay, I have split bottles of wine in restaurants that have run well past $200, but that's with restaurant markup. I figure the price at a good discount liquor store like Total Wine would be anywhere from 1/3 to as little as 1/5 of that. And it's at Total Wine that that bottle of whiskey goes for $209.99. At BevMo it's $226.

The price of the gift wasn't the only shocker I saw when I looked up details on it. My search for "Yamazaki whiskey" (Yamazaki is the producer) turned up the deets on this old friend:

I bought bottles of Yamazaki 12 Year Japanese whiskey years ago for $35... now it's rare and sells for $200 (Dec 2025)Yamazaki 12 year single malt is a Japanese whiskey I discovered umpteen years ago when I started traveling to Japan and was first exploring whiskey. I say discovered because back then, in the late 00s, Japanese whiskey was not common in the US. The first few bottles I bought— including one that was a gift for a colleague who'd helped me from Sunnyvale on a project, staying up late working until midnight a few nights to sync time zones with me in Tokyo— I bought in Ginza and hand-carried home on my NRT-SFO flight.

I was a few years ahead of the curve on Japanese whiskeys. The first bottles I brought home were novel even to my few friends who were whiskey fans. One had dozens of bottles of whiskey on his shelf at home, and this was new to him.

Within a few years Japanese whiskey got popular in the US. I was able to buy Yamazaki 12 at places like BevMo. The price was still reasonable, at first... $35, about the same as I paid at a liquor store Tokyo, adjusting for exchange rate.

But then Japanese whiskeys got stupid popular in the US. Actually, all whiskey got popular. In the early/mid '10s in the US whiskey had become the "it" drink. And Japanese whiskey became what the self-styled whiskey sophisticates drank to show the whiskey mass-market drinkers how they were more sophisticated because they'd already gone beyond the traditional Scotch and Irish whiskeys everyone else was celebrating. Soon the mass market drinkers wanted in on Japanese whiskey, too. The result was the comparatively small Japanese production houses sold out so much of their liquor that age-statement whiskeys like Yamazaki 12 became extremely rare.

Long story short: The Yamazaki 12 year is now a $200 bottle, too!

I wish I'd bought a few more bottles when they were $35. Alas I only have the one, and there are only maybe two shots left in it. I'll have to drink them with intention.

Once I saw how much the price of Yamazaki 12 year had inflated I was curious about another, even more expensive Japanese whiskey I also picked up umpteen years ago.

I splurged and spent $80 years ago on this bottle of Hibiki 17 year Japanese whiskey... now it's rare and sells for over $800! (Dec 2025)

This Hibiki 17 year was about $85 when I bought it in Japan in 2010. That was the most expensive bottle I'd bought up to that point. Adjusting for inflation it'd be $125 today, which is still more than I've paid for any bottle. But inflation is not the only story here.

As with the Yamazaki 12, Suntory sold so much Hibiki when it was stupid-popular that they sold out most of their back-stock. Hibiki 17 has been discontinued. Bottles now sell for $800+. 😳

canyonwalker: Message in a bottle (blogging)
This morning as I arose from bed I felt a moment of nostalgia. "It's Christmas morning," I remembered. "What presents have magically appeared under the tree?"

Of course it's been decades since I believed in Santa Claus or presents magically appearing beneath a Christmas tree. It's also been almost as many decades since I actually believed in Christmas. ....Oh, I don't deny that Christmas exists. It's a religious holiday that's important to one of the world's large religions. I'm just not a religious person.

Bah, Humbug?

I've written about Christmas with the tag Bah Humbug on LiveJournal for years. Partly that's a personal inside joke, dating back years now to when I was in graduate school. The preeminent technical conference in my field had its annual submissions deadline in early January. Late December was crunch time to finish up our research and writing. That year I was working on not one, nor two, but three papers for the conference. It was mega crunch time. I recall I went to the lab sometime around 1pm on December 24th and left to go home at 7am, having pulled an all-nighter (one of many). Bah, Humbug!"I'm part of the Bah-Humbug Brigade!" I chuckled to myself as I settled down to sleep around 8 on Christmas morning.

Over the years since then I've kept Bah, Humbug as a meme to encapsulate my feeling of alienation at this time of year. Christmas is familiar to me because I grew up in a religious family celebrating it, and simultaneously foreign because I'm not longer religious and haven't celebrated it for years. At Christmastime I feel like I'm on the outside looking in through the glass with a tinge of longing— as well as a tinge of disgust at what it's become.

Of course I didn't invent the phrase Bah, Humbug. It entered our cultural lexicon with Charles Dickens's classic 1843 novel, A Christmas Carol. "Bah, humbug!" was the memorable refrain of the main character, Ebenezer Scrooge, a greedy man who scoffed at the religious significance of Christmas to anyone. He thought it was theft that his employees wanted even one day off to celebrate at home with their families.

I chuckle at saying "Bah, humbug!" but I'm not Scrooge. I don't deny the importance of Christmas to the 2-billion-plus Christians in the world... or the people who've embraced the American cultural version of Christmas as a month-long celebration of consumerism (oops, there's my tinge of disgust coming trough). I'm just not one of them. But if you are, I'm happy for you.

Most Years I Travel. This Year We're Home-bound.

Another way I'm not like Scrooge is that I don't intend to work on Christmas. ...Not since that one time years ago in grad school, anyway! 🙃

Most years I take advantage of the time off my employer provides, and the generally slow place of business at this time of year, to travel. For example, last year Hawk and I were hiking in Panama on Christmas. The year before we were touring Sydney, Australia on foot. In 2022 we visited the California desert and spent Christmas day climbing huge sand dunes, visiting an abandoned train station, driving a 4x4 trail, and exploring lava tube caves. In 2021 we were on the beach in Waikiki, Hawaii at Christmas.

In fact the last time we didn't go anywhere over Christmas was 5 years ago. That was back in the depths of the Coronavirus pandemic, before the vaccines were available to more than a handful of lucky recipients.

Indeed, what December 2020 and now have in common is that Being Sick Sucks. Oh, fortunately it's not another raging pandemic that's keeping us home this year. It's just the uncertainty around Hawk's recovery from foot surgery a few months ago. And it's just as well we didn't try to plan anything around that as she suffered a major setback a few days ago that left her unable even to walk inside the house for a few days.


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"Where's the beef?" actress Clara Peller famously barked in a series of Wendy's TV commercials back in the 1980s. The commercials were such a success that the line became part of the cultural lexicon for years after. Kids would repeat it to each other and laugh, sort of like kids today do with "6-7", except that "Where's the beef?" had an actual, clear source— one that adults could understand, too. Well, I've been repeating the phrase again this past week, though with a bittersweet chuckle this time. The Wendy's restaurants in Sunnyvale are now gone!

Wendy's is closing 100s of underperforming restaurants (Nov 2025)It was in the news a few weeks ago that Wendy's is closing approximately 300 underperforming restaurants across the US. This comes after closing about 150 restaurants in 2024. (Example news coverage: CBS News article, 17 Nov 2025)

The last remaining Wendy's in Sunnyvale seems to have been part of this wave. The restaurant shut down sometime in the past week or two, I think. It's a few miles away and in a part of town I rarely traverse.

For a long time we had a Wendy's restaurant closer to home, just 1 mile away, on a street I regularly drive. In fact it used to be just around the corner from a spot where I worked for a few years!

That shop closed up during Covid, presumably a casualty of reduced business. The property changed hands, and they bulldozed the restaurant and put a bright, new Taco Bell in its spot. I've eat there once since then, just to remind myself Yeah, Taco Bell is kind of gross. 🤣

So anyway, now when I'm in the mood for a Dave's Old-Fashioned, I've got to travel miles to get one. A quick check on Google Maps shows there are four Wendy's still standing in San Jose, a couple in Fremont, and one up in Redwood City.

I'm not going to go that far for a Dave's Old-Fashioned, though. The main reason is they're just not that good anymore.

Oh, I used to love me a ¼-pound single combo years ago. Back in college, for example, a new Wendy's opened on a busy corner near where I lived the last 3 semesters there. It was right on my walk to/from classes. I ate there easily a few times a week. And it was good. Other Wendy's since then just haven't been as good. Even when that other Wendy's in Sunnyvale was right around the corner from my office, I ate there maybe once a month at most. And the one that just closed? I ate there back in March and was disappointed. The food was expensive, employees blocked off the cash register with a self-ordering kiosk, then they made my food wrong, and they barely cared.

Sometimes there's a reason businesses fail. I mean, there's always a reason, but a lot of the time it's not the macro trends that business owners routinely cite— things like the economy, Covid-19, inflation, minimum wage being raised, the skyrocketing divorce rate, or my favorite stupid excuse, "Millennials Are Killing the XYZ Industry". Sometimes, probably much of the time, the call is coming from inside the house!

Oh, you might still be wondering about that Where's the Beef? meme I mentioned at the start. Here's the infamous Wendy's TV commercial from 1984:



Enjoy!
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Thanksgiving triplog #12
Leesburg, VA · Tue, 25 Nov 2025. 12:30pm.

Hawk and I are road-tripping from northern Virginia to central Pennsylvania today. It's a day sooner than we planned to make this drive but we called an audible this morning after plans fell through. After packing up and leaving the hotel a day early we ran a quick errand a few miles down the road in Gainesville, VA then started our route north toward Harrisburg, PA.

Gainesville used to be a dot on a map, an exit off I-66 with a handful of fast food restaurants and gas stations for travelers. Now it's a series of huge strip malls stretching 2 miles long and a mile wide, with lots of big-box stores and restaurants. Oh, and shitty traffic to match.

We considered eating lunch in Gainesville. With so many restaurants to choose from (again, this burgeoning exurb used to be a rural crossroads) we figured we'd find something. One name leapt out at me: Roy Rogers.

My first visit to a Roy Rogers restaurant in 30 years! (Nov 2025)

Ultimately we didn't eat at Roy Rogers in Gainesville but did eat at one about half an hour north along our route, in Leesburg, VA. There are two Roy's in Leesburg. Along with the one south in Gainesville and one west in Front Royal, this is a region where you can find a lot of Roy Rogers restaurants. There are only about 40 Roy's now, so about 10% of all their restaurants are in this western-northern Virginia area.

Many of you reading this might be wondering, "WTH is a Roy Rogers restaurant?" The chain begain struggling and crashed in the 1990s through a series of acquisitions, mergers, and sales. At its height in the 1980s, though, it had 600 stores. When I was a kid and people were arguing about whether McDonald's or Burger King was better, I was like, "How about we go to Roy Rogers instead?"

As I walked into the restaurant I told the gal who asked to take my order, "Give me a moment to read the menu, it's been 40 years!"

As I thought more about when really was the last time I saw a Roy's I walked that 40 years claim back to 30 years. I definitely ate at Roy's a few times in the early 1990s, and I remember finding one to eat at on a road trip in the 1994-1995 timeframe. By then Roy's was already folding up most of its locations. I'm all but certain I haven't set foot in a Roy's since then.

So, how is it 30 years later?

Roy Rogers still has the classic Fixin's Bar (Nov 2025)

Well, Roy's still has the "Fixin's Bar"! It's not as big as I remember, but it's still got all the goodness of being able to dress your hamburger yourself.

Curiously, Roy's didn't start as a fast food hamburger restaurant. According to its Wikipedia article it started in the late 1960s selling roast beef sandwiches. I think they may have phased those out years later as I don't recall seeing roast beef on the menu in my earliest recollections of eating there as a kid in the late 70s. By then they were mostly about hamburgers— and that iconic Fixin's (sic) Bar. Later they added fried chicken. But I always liked them for their burgers better than McDonald's and Burger King. Being able to dress the burger exactly the way I wanted it was an additional plus.

Speaking of the Fixin's Bar....

"Fixin'" my burger as always— with too much ketchup, as always (Nov 2025)

Today I dressed my burger the way I always did. A bit of lettuce, a few onions, mustard, and twice as much ketchup as I wanted because the ketchup pump still squirts out way the hell too much ketchup at a time. Even 40 years later some things don't change! 🤣

The burger wasn't quite as good as I remember. I don't know if that's because all fast food burgers have deteriorated in quality over the years as restaurants have sought cheaper ingredients and almost never cook them fresh to order anymore; or if it's because I have a more discerning palate now than when I was a kid. Probably it's some of both. Though one improvement in my lunch today was getting a side of onion rings with my burger. I don't remember onion rings being an option there back in the day. And these 'rings had thick, juicy hoops of onion inside a light fry coasting. Mmm-mmm!

canyonwalker: Sullivan, a male golden eagle at UC Davis Raptor Center (Golden Eagle)
Thanksgiving triplog #8
Manassas, VA · Mon, 24 Nov 2025. 3:30pm.

We're back at the hotel now, between episodes of eating our way through friends and family. Earlier today we met old friends for lunch in Arlington; this evening we'll meet one of my cousins and his wife for dinner in South Riding. South Riding is a place-name I never knew existed, and I grew up not far from here! But more on that later.

My sister said something yesterday that bothers me. It's about her kids. During our pleasant day together full of verbal repartee I teased her gently about how difficult it was for us to buy graduation gifts for her older two kids.

One of them we'd asked several times what he wanted for a graduation gift without getting a response. We could've just bought him something but didn't want to risk (a) duplicating a gift from someone else or (b) buying him something expensive he didn't actually like or want. And (c) we didn't want to give a gift as impersonal as "Here's a wad of cash".

Ultimately, 9 months later, he responded to us and asked for a new phone. It was clear from his asking that his mother had put him up to it. That's what I was teasing C. about— "When P. asked us for that phone, it's because he complained to you that his phone broke and you told him to soak his rich uncle and aunt for a new one, right?"

This wasn't just teasing C. about her kids, though. The topic of graduation gfits is topical because one of P's younger brothers, J., will be graduating in 6-7 months. And given how long it took to get an answer from P., we figured we'd better start asking J. now. Including asking his mom what he needs. 🤨

"My kids are reluctant to ask for things," she explained. She hypothesized that it comes from when the family was struggling harder and material goods were in short supply. Oh, the kids always had a roof over their head, and adequate food, and two pairs of shoes without holes, she assured me. But they learned the answer to "Can we have?" other things was No. So the kids stopped asking.

I recognize part of the dynamic. I was raised in similar conditions. Money was tight, and while we always had a roof over our heads— though at least once my parents came close to not being able to pay the mortgage—and food on the table, other things were luxuries. Including shoes. While C is happy her kids always had two good pairs of shoes, one sneakers and one dress-up for going to church, I usually only had one pair. And half the time they had holes.

Where it gets worse (sadder) with C's kids, though, is that they've internalized guilt over wanting better things. While I never accepted that holey sneakers are all I deserved in life, or that it was wrong to want sneakers without holes, that's what C's kids are seeming to do. She gave the example of how one of them said he didn't want braces because they'd be too expensive for Mom and Dad to afford. It's great that young kids are learning about making tradeoffs in life, but accepting crooked teeth because you think braces— like every other kid in school gets— is too much to ask for is sad.

Again, I recognize part of the dynamic here. I recognize it because I lived it. And because I lived it I'm pretty sure those kids came up with this internalized guilt all on their own.

My father tried to instill guilt in me by telling me I was greedy. I was greedy for wanting nice gifts for my birthday. I was greedy for wanting a second pair of shoes— without holes. I was greedy for wanting a bigger slice of pizza at dinner. I was greedy even for asking that we get pizza when Dad asked the family, "Where should we go out for dinner tonight?" The proper thing to do, according to my dad, would've been to keep quiet until everyone else stated an opinion, and only then ask for what I want.

The difference was, that bullshit guilt trip only half worked on me. I mean, I never did stop believing I should ask for what I want. I did internalize some guilt around it, though. Even into my 40s there were times I felt bad about saying, "I would like XYZ for dinner" because I feared— through internalized guilt— that expressing my want was wrong because other people want things, too, and somehow when multiple people want things my wants are wrong. 🙄

Well, we didn't come to an answer for what J. might like for his graduation next year.

Or maybe it'll be paying his parents back for his braces. 🙁

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Thanksgiving triplog #7
Arlington, VA · Mon, 24 Nov 2025. 1:30pm.

Hawk and I continued eating our way through our friends and family this afternoon. We met a pair of old friends, [personal profile] scifantasy and [personal profile] jsbowden, for lunch in Arlington, VA. And no, it wasn't "3 blocks from the Clarendon Metro station" (old in-joke). Actually it was a few blocks from the Ballston metro stop. 😅

These are friends we've had for... upwards of 30 years... on social media. "30 years?" you might ask. "That's 1995!" Facebook only started in 2004 (and didn't really become a dominant platform until 2008). Twitter started in 2006. Even MySpace was only founded in 2003. 🤣 But yes, we were doing social media in the 1990s. It was different then. It was... *gasp*... text based.

Anyway, it was good to see these friends again in 3D. Or, in the case of [personal profile] jsbowden, I think this is the first time we've ever met in person. 🤯

canyonwalker: Sullivan, a male golden eagle at UC Davis Raptor Center (Golden Eagle)
It's time for another chapter in the story mystery of the church up the hill. This is now part 3 of the story. Originally I had thought I'd be able to fit it all in one journal entry but as I started writing the story it grew. It grew first from one blog to three. Then as I took a slight detour into writing about AI and photography in part 2 I realized the story will take 4, maybe 5, chapters to complete.

As I noted in the previous chapter, my dad lost his job when I was a little kid. The retail chain he worked for went out of business.

AI rendering of when a chain of stores closed and everyone lost their jobs (Google Gemini, Oct 2025)

Dad's job wasn't a great job. The hours were brutal. As a store manager he was salaried, not hourly, so he didn't get paid for his extra work. And extra work was required every time a store employee called in sick and no substitute could be found, and every time there was a break-in afterhours and the alarm company and the police called. The way my mom told the story, years later, break-in attempts happened regularly, like at least once a month. The store was in a rough neighborhood.

Dad's job wasn't a great job, but at least it paid the bills. I think. Then he lost the job, with little or warning.

This was the mid 1970s. As I noted in the previous chapter, the economy sucked. Technically the US had just pulled out of its worst recession since the Great Depression, but hiring had not yet resumed. I imagine younger folks today who lived through the jobless recovery of the Great Recession in the late 00s understand the pattern.

Speaking of younger generations and modern patterns, my parents in the mid 1970s did something that's familiar to a younger generation today: they hustled. With "real" jobs not really hiring, my parents both took on whatever odd jobs they could find. Between hustling and scrimping and borrowing, they kept a roof over our heads and food on the table.

AI rendering of my parents excited they managed to pay the mortgage after my dad lost his job (Google Gemini, Oct 2025)

This is where some of my earliest memories meld in with the stories my parents later told. Oddly I don't remember my parents being stressed around that time, or unhappy. Probably that's because I was too young to recognize such emotions. It could also be that my parents hid their stress and worries well from us younger kids. One snapshot memory I do have from back then is my parents giving each other a high five when my mom said, "We did it! We paid the mortgage this month."

I also have early memories of some of the jobs my parents did during that time of hustling. My mom started selling Tupperware. Many of my earliest memories are of riding with her in the car as she drove back and forth to the Tupperware warehouse. We'd return with a suitcase full of products she'd sell via Tupperware parties.

A modern pic of 1970s vintage Tupperware (courtesy of Adrian Baldwin)

I wish I could say that Tupperware was how my parents pulled out of the economic nosedive after my dad lost his job. I wish I could say that Tupperware was how my mom built  a lasting and fulfilling career as an entrepreneur— which was part of the Women's Liberation pitch Tupperware was making back in the 1970s. Alas, I'm not sure my mom ever made any money with Tupperware.

That's because Tupperware was, for many years, a multi-level marketing (MLM) organization. In MLMs most distributors make very little money. See Wikipedia's Tupperware page, for example.

Mom stopped selling Tupperware after a short period of time. Likely that's because she netted little or no money after a lot of work— work planning and presenting at Tupperware parties, hustling to get people to place orders (remember, in a tough economy), then having to pick up & deliver the orders once they were shipped to the local warehouse. But while the dream of making it a sustainable career disappeared quickly, the Tupperware itself did not. Mom bought a number of pieces herself, because they were useful. And they lasted. The bright, 1970s vintage colors and those fluted lids were a mainstay in our house for many years after.

To be continued....

canyonwalker: Sullivan, a male golden eagle at UC Davis Raptor Center (Golden Eagle)
I began a journey down memory lane yesterday when I wrote a journal entry about how my parents never liked attending the church of their faith that was right in our neighborhood. Instead of a short walk up the hill behind our house to the local church where we might see our own neighbors, we piled in the car and drove 20 minutes each way to a church in the next town over.

As I wrote in that blog, my parents were evasive about why they preferred the one far away. My parents, especially my father, gave only vague non-answers whenever I wondered. After a while I stopped asking.

The truth about the church up the hill came out decades later, not long before my father passed away. He knew he was in his last few months of life. He told me one of his goals then was to square things with relatives who were estranged from him. I wasn't estranged by any stretch of the imagination. I was traveling coast-to-coast every few weeks to visit and support him. During one of our bedside chats he told me the story. Well, not the whole story. He gave me just the one or two missing pieces that allowed me connect up the puzzle from other things he'd told me over the years and from things I remember from as far back as my own early childhood.

The story goes back to the mid 1970s when my dad lost his job as a store manger in a retail chain.

AI rendering of when a chain of stores closed and everyone lost their jobs (Google Gemini, Oct 2025)

The mid 1970s were a tough time in the US. The country was just coming out of a deep economic recession spurred by the first oil embargo. The recession was probably why his employer folded. And even though the recession was over by the way economists define it, it wasn't over by the way ordinary people might define it. Companies were failing. Those that weren't failing still weren't hiring. The unemployment rate was above 7%. So when my dad's employer shut down and sent everyone to the unemployment line, finding new work wasn't easy. It took my dad months... maybe even a year or more.

By the way, yes, I'm using AI image generation to help illustrate this story. No, I don't have real photos to share from that time. I was too young even to hold a camera then. I mean, I was still filling diapers when this shit went down. And my parents never snapped many photos during my childhood. That always struck me as weird when I was older, because my dad had been a semi-pro photographer when he was in high school and college.

I saw some of his 1960s era work decades later. It was in a box from his mother, who'd just passed away at age 101. It looked good. He could have made it a career. Why did he put his cameras down and then not pick up another one for, like, 40 years? And also, his mom kept copies his vintage work as mementos; he never did. I might've asked him "why?" about either of those facts, but as I already explained early in this story, my dad was famously loath to answer such questions. In that respect he was like a perpetual pouty teenager giving guttural one-word answers.

Anyway, AI image generation. I'm using it here because I think telling the story with some pictures improves if, even if the pics are not authentic. For one, having pictures beats walls of text. Two, I've iterated on the prompts for these pictures to have them reflect, accurately, particular elements of the story. Of course it's impossible to have them accurately reflect everything, even the spotty parts I remember in snapshot memories from my early childhood. I've got a funny story to share about some of the prompting I had to do while creating an image I'll use later in the story. I'll share that anecdote when we get there.

To be continued....

canyonwalker: Sullivan, a male golden eagle at UC Davis Raptor Center (Golden Eagle)
I grew up in a neighborhood where there was a church up the hill. It wasn't right next to our house but it was a short walk away. Go up to the corner, turn left, go to the end of the cul-de-sac, then follow the walkway behind one of the houses up to the church lot. It was close enough that by the time I was 8, my younger sister and I could ride our bicycles up there. ...But not on Sundays. For even though it was a church of our religion, the religion my father had been born into and almost dedicated his life to the priesthood of, we almost never attended that church. Instead my parents took us to another church of the same faith a 20 minute car ride away.

An AI rendering of the church up the hill (Google Gemini, Oct 2025)

Why didn't we attend our own neighborhood church? It was so close a child could handle the walk. Indeed, I remember occasionally seeing some of our neighbors walking to or from late Sunday morning services when the weather was nice. But we virtually never joined them. Instead we piled into the family car and drove to another church virtually nobody in our town had heard of.

This church nestled among the mature trees in our neighborhood was unusual in our town. In our town, built almost entirely by a single developer starting in the mid 1960s, all the other churches were on the main roads into/out of town. That made them easy to drive to; they were on major roads with high speed limits. But there was no weekly parade of neighborhood faithful walking to or from services, because those churches were on high-speed roads with no sidewalks— next to the strip malls. "Centrally located!" I'm sure the 1960s suburban planners touted. But their design also made them centrally isolated. Except our neighborhood's church.

"Why don't we go to the church up the hill?" I asked my parents numerous times when I was a child.

"Urrrarrughh," was my father's reply— when he'd reply at all. It was a guttural grumble, a nonverbal answering indicating that the conversation was over.

A few times my mother answered. "Your father doesn't like the way they celebrate there," she explained. "It's too modern."

"What's different— or wrong— with the way they celebrate mass?" I wondered, sometimes out loud. But usually silently, because there was low tolerance for badgering questions when I was a little kid. Keep asking after a nonverbal Urrrarrughh answer and the next answer might be a nonverbal swat with his right hand.

Now, since we did occasionally attend a service at that church, occasionally as in once every year or two, I did see how they're different. Or, rather, how they're not.

They were both Catholic churches. There's a not a huge amount of difference in how they celebrate Sunday services. The Catholic church's strong central hierarchy sees to that. When we were on vacations hundreds of miles away we could drop in to a church, and the service would be immediately familiar. Oh, the physical building might look newer or older, there might be old-fashioned wooden pews and maybe even a pipe organ; but the content of the worship was word-for-word virtually the same. The same format, the same readings, the same prayers at the same times. So what was so unacceptably different about the church up the hill?

AI rendering of musicians leading a song at a Catholic church (Google Gemini, Oct 2025)

It's too modern. That three word phrase was the only meaningful answer I heard for a dozen or more years. And yet it was also absurdly meaning-less as there was so little different between the two churches. The only nominally "modern" thing I could spot in the church we avoided is that it had a younger core of volunteer musicians who led the congregation in songs. And among the instruments they played was... gasp!... an acoustic guitar.

Nobody else played an acoustic guitar in a Catholic church. Nobody. Especially not at the totally-not-modern church my father preferred. There they played only the one instrument that was common in the time of Jesus Himself. The electric organ.

Haha, yes, I'm being tongue-in-cheek with that. But seriously, the choices of instruments was the only material difference I could spot. And as far as differences go, it was pretty darn close to immaterial. The "modern" church sang the same songs with same appropriate reverence.

Years later, decades later, I learned the truth about why my father refused to take us to the "modern" church. As you might suspect when the stated reason is so vacuous, so readily disproven by easily observed fact, the real reason is quite different from the stated one. And often the real reason is shameful for the person offering the dissembling answer to admit— which is why they dissemble and distract instead. The real reason we didn't attend the church up the hill is my father felt shame going there.


To be continued....
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It's in the news this week that the average new car price in the US has topped $50,000 for the first time. That's according to a study released by Kelley Blue Book.

That eye-popping price presents quite a bit of sticker shock to those of us older than, say, 30, who remember cars being a lot cheaper in the past— including the not-too-distant past. But car prices are inflationary, and over time the compounding effect of a few percent a year packs a wallop— particularly after the past few years, when inflation has run higher than just a few percent a year.

Even so, have car prices increased faster than the rate of inflation? One way of looking at it argues yes. For example, I bought my own first car, new, in 1991. It cost $9,100. Per inflation calculators easy to find online (I did a quick search and tried the top five results, all hosted by reputable sites) that $9,100 in 1991 dollars is $21,500 today. Trying finding a new car for just $21,500 nowadays! "The $20,000 market for cars is extinct," Cox Automotive analyst Erin Keating said, as noted in this Yahoo! Finance article (14 Oct 2025).

"Extinct" is a bit of hyperbole, of course. But if you tweak that term to nearly extinct, it's spot-on. A quick check over at Edmunds.com shows that it's hard to get into a new car, even a subcompact, for my $21,500 effective price in 2025. Here's what I found:

  • A popular car that was comparable in size to what I bought at the time is the Honda Civic. The cheapest Civic model today starts at 24,500. (That's Edmunds' suggested negotiated price, not "sticker".)

  • Another popular moden that was similar to mine 24 years ago is the Toyota Corolla. The cheapest new 2025 Corolla, in base trim, is $22,200.

  • Rounding out the Japanese Big 3, Nissan's base-model Sentra S retails for an average of $21,250.


Many of the articles covering KBB's announcement point out that a simple, inflation based comparison is misleading. That's because, they argue, cars today are better than cars from years ago. Indeed, reliability is up across the auto industry. Statistics show that cars are able to operate more miles and more years now than decades ago.

Feature content in new cars is improved, too. That $21,250 Nissan Sentra S is derided for offering sparse accommodations. Indeed it comes with steel wheels with plastic hub caps and cloth upholstery. But my 1991 new car also had steel wheels with plastic hubcaps and cloth upholstery... and it did not have power windows. Or air conditioning. 😰 These are things we all take for granted in cars today! And the 2025 Sentra S also has remote keyless entry, push-button start, and Apple CarPlay and Android Auto with a 7" touchscreen. My 1991 car didn't even have a side-view mirror on the right side. I bought one a year later for $95 from the dealership's parts department and installed it myself!

So, yeah, the $21,500 end of the new car market really doesn't suck today. Sure, you're getting a base-model car for that money, but even the base model today is a way nicer car than the base models of years ago.

And what about that $50k figure? Most of the news coverage about it notes that the average price has been driven up by most of the activity in the new-car market being at the higher end. Lower end shoppers are finding more satisfaction in buying a good, lightly used car for $21,500. That's where I'd be shopping today with $21,500. Meanwhile the best-selling new vehicle in the US is the Ford F-150 pickup, the most popular trim levels of which start over $40,000. The plusher trims run from $50,000 to over $70,000.

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Buzzfeed had a listicle in my newsfeed this evening, "People Who Work Night Shifts Are Sharing Things "Day Shifters" Don't Understand About Their World, And As A Day Shifter, I'm Intrigued". I'm a sucker for Buzzfeed listicles (lists of pithy responses in Reddit threads that are turned into articles) and I worked second shift for three summers years ago, so I figured, Hey, I'll play! Here are Five Things of mine:

1) Second Shift requires some adaptation. The second, or "swing", shifts I worked were 5pm-midnight, 5-11pm, or 4pm-midnight. The exact hours varied by job and year to year within one of the jobs (the company changed its hours). Working second shift puts you out of sync with the rest of society, though not as badly as third shift. That's because I could still manage daytime hours for appointments, shopping, etc... though it did take more careful planning and some adaptation. For example, if I wanted to go out for "dinner" at a restaurant, it was at 3:30pm before work. My effective dinner, after getting off work, was almost always some cooked straight out of the freezer at home at 1-2am. Virtually nothing was open after midnight, nor even really after 10pm, in the places I lived.

2) Second shift can be busy... or quiet. In one job I worked, a call center, the whole department was staffed during second shift, meaning there were a few dozen employees plus 2-3 managers. Second shift there entailed constant, steady work. Though the rest of the company was dark at those hours... so breaks in the lunch room or outside the front door were alwasy eerily quiet. At the other job I worked I was there as part of a 24x7 rotation in case something went wrong. And since I was the only person there for most of my shift, either it was something basic I could diagnose and repair on my own, or I documented and left it for the fully staffed M-F 8-5 crew.

3) You can't come home and go straight to bed. One of the biggest things people misunderstand about working second shift is thinking, "Oh, it's just 'til 11 or 12, that's like a slightly late evening." NO IT'S NOT! It's not "just like a slightly late evening" because when you get off shift and arrive home at midnight or almost 1am, you can't just go straight to bed. You're up. You've been working. You need a few hours to wind down before you can sleep! I was routinely going to bed at 3 in the morning. Sometimes, if I got involved in reading a book after work, I'd be up until 6am.

4) Switching shifts is hard. The third year I worked second shifts, I did that 3-4 nights a week and also had 1-2 days of first shift on the weekends. Switching 1st to 2nd wasn't hard, but going from 2nd to 1st always messed up my schedule. I'm glad I was young when I did that.

5) I was warned off working third shifts. Not that I ever considered shift work after summer jobs in college, but one of the third-shifters at the 24x7 place I worked was a quiet warning. There were two guys who worked the 11pm-9am shift, Ross and Gene. Ross had only been doing it for a year or two; he was hard up in a slow economy, and the work paid well. But Gene had always been working third shift. He looked to be 60... but one night during our shift overlap he and I were discussing his plan to go back to college to finish his degree, and I learned he was only 40. The man clearly looked 60! Everyone around the office whispered, "Yeah, you age fast working third shift!"


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