canyonwalker: Planes, Trains, and Automobiles. Travel! (planes trains and automobiles)
The past two weekends I mostly sat around home like a bump on a log. I sat around and I was pissed at myself for letting opportunities slip through my fingers. Opportunities for what? Opportunities to do... anything. Anything fun. Anything more fulfilling that sitting around home like a bump on a log! I was such a bump on a log I didn't even blog. 🤣 So I promised myself (and my blog) I'd starting doing more.

Since then I've not only blogged more, I've done more. Monday night I went out to meet friends for dinner and games. I was feeling tired all Monday afternoon and thought long and hard about just staying in. Come 5:30pm I felt like I just wanted to go to bed early. But I pressed through my grogginess optimistic that by getting out I'd get a second wind. And I did! Monday evening dinner and games with friends was fun.

Tuesday evening we had a dinner date with friends again. Again I was tired in the afternoon. Again I gave serious consideration to text my friends my regrets I'd be unable to join them. And again I put faith in doing-something-brings-a-second-wind... and again my faith was confirmed. We had another nice evening out.

This week we've also been making plans for the weekend. Lack of plans is something that I felt frustrated about last weekend. As I sat like a bump on a log Saturday morning, mildly fuming at myself for being such a bump on a log, I realized that I could've been heading out for adventure... if only I planned it even a day in advance. So for this weekend we thought about where to go on an adventure. We came up with two ideas. And like we tend to do when we come up with two great ideas for travel... we chose them both! We've booked one trip this weekend and the other for two weekends after that. (The weekend in the middle we've already got plans.)

So, tomorrow afternoon instead of slouching into a weekend of torpor at home, we'll be packing the car and hitting the highway. Where to? On the road to adventure!
canyonwalker: Uh-oh, physics (Wile E. Coyote)
For the last many years on this blog I've looked at my posting frequency as a matter of how many posts per day. And for years I've averaged close to 2/day. This past week that ratio's been upside down. I've averaged day/2.... Meaning, 3 posts in 6 days. One post every two days.

What's up with that? I wish I could say it's because I've been too busy— too busy doing things to pause and write about them. But I have not been busy. At least not that busy. Alas the reason I've posted so little this week is because I just... haven't... cared.

A big part of it is I've been tired. I'm not sure why I'm tired. Again, I haven't been super busy. I haven't been putting in 12-14 hour days at work, and I haven't been running myself ragged with things outside of work. Frankly I've been lying around like a bump on a log a lot.

A week ago I fretted that I hadn't done much over the weekend. This weekend I managed to do even less. I just couldn't must the energy... or the caring... to get out and do anything. 😞

What's got me down? I don't know. Maybe it's just a reality of getting older that I struggle so much to find energy.

I'll see if I can at least get my blog rate back up. 🤣 I do have a ton of things I want to write about. I just have to choose to spend the time writing. My energy to write comes in bursts, though. To make that work for blogging I'll start drafting blog entries when I have a spurt of energy, then post them at a steady rate. It's a technique I've used before when I've been pressed for time. Now I'm just pressed for energy. 😞
canyonwalker: Hangin' in a hammock (life's a beach)
My plan this weekend was #PoolLife. After a busy-busy week of work Friday would be a half-day, I'd enjoy the pool mid-afternoon in the heat, then having little else on my calendar this weekend, do more of the same Saturday and Sunday afternoons while the warm weather lasts. Alas by the time I finished work Friday sometime after 3pm I was too tired to bother going to the pool. I just wanted to lie down and take a nap. 😧

I'm-too-tired continued to be a challenge over the weekend. Saturday I ended up not using the pool at all. Sunday I went for an hour because I forced myself to, frustrated that I didn't want to let my grand plan for the weekend go completely unacted upon.

Relaxing in the pool (Jul 2025)

Yes, going out to the pool for a while was nice. It was also tiring. I wound up microwaving some Hot Pockets for dinner Sunday night because I was too tired to go out for dinner and also too tired to actually cook anything. Sunday night I went to bed right before 9pm, once again lying down to sleep while there was still light in the sky.

Now it's Monday morning and it's almost time for work. Where did my weekend go? I feel like I slept/sleep-walked through too much of it. 😞

canyonwalker: wiseguy (Default)
I mused yesterday that I was a slug on my day off. Well, today I had the day off, too. It wasn't a public holiday (yesterday was Juneteenth) so I took PTO. And today on my second day off I was slightly less of a slug.

Like yesterday I started the day by sleeping in. I didn't sleep in anywhere near as much, though. I was out of bed before 8. (It helped that I wasn't up half the night sleepless and with stomach problems.) I still frittered away the morning... though we got in a dip in the hot tub before I went out for lunch.

On the way home from lunch I ran one small errand then got back to frittering. Hawk suggested we go out for a hike instead of just frittering. I agreed. We changed into our hike-y clothes and drove out to the Sunnyvale Baylands.

It was a nothing-special hike, just a walk in a local park. Hawk is still getting over sickness so we didn't want to commit to anything big or strenuous. It was good to get out. The conditions weren't great, though. There was a strong wind on the bay, and the smells from the sewage treatment plants in the area were fierce. 💩😷 Also, the water was green. Bright green. When the bay looks like a bazillion people went 🤢🤮 it's kind of a turnoff. BTW, the green water isn't literally because 🤮; it's most likely because of a high concentration of algae or other microorganisms, and they can also contribute to the water smelling like 💩.

Despite the conditions we got a good hike in. I know because my feet were achy at dinnertime.

For dinner I had "freezer surprise". I'd dug through one of the shelves in the freezer earlier in the day and uncovered a bunch of stuff I'd forgotten I have. I defrosted and ate one of those finds, a package of precooked shrimp.

Tonight I'm frittering again. Hawk hopes she'll be up for a bigger hike tomorrow. Maybe we'll go back up into the mountains, like when we hiked at Russian Ridge two weeks ago. If not, maybe we'll get together with friends who are hosting a boardgames day.

canyonwalker: Hangin' in a hammock (life's a beach)
Today was the start of a four-day weekend. We'd had plans to travel but canceled those plans a few days ago due to lingering sickness. Instead I stayed home and basically wasted the day. 😞

I had trouble sleeping last night. I got down to sleep okay, going to bed a bit early (before 10pm) as I'd been up since 5:30am. But then I awoke at 3am and could not get back to sleep. I tossed and turned in bed for a bit, willing myself to get back to sleep, but gave up after 30 minutes or so when I could tell that wasn't going to work. I got up and fooled around on my computer for 3 hours. I felt tired after the sun had risen and went back to bed at 6:30. Then I slept until almost 11. I'd fret about wasting half the day in bed but it's not like I had much else to do today.

Hawk and I got out late for lunch today. It was her first dining out in several days, since she was diagnosed with bronchitis. She still has a cough— we both do— but it's typically for a cough to linger without being contagious for a few weeks after this kind of sickness. I'm very familiar with the lingers-for-a-few-weeks cough, unfortunately. Anyway, since it was her first time out of the house in a few days we went to one of her local favorites, Speedy's Tacos. We got donuts after at Daily Donuts.

In the afternoon I continued my tempo of not doing much at home. Late in the day I got really bored and finally pulled out my sewing kit to fix seams and buttons on some pants and shirts that have been waiting for attention for, in some cases, 6 months. I had been debating the over-under of sewing them myself versus taking them to a tailor shop to be fixed for, I dunno, $10 or whatever each. Probably it would've made economic sense simply to pay for someone else to do the work, but I chose to do it myself because there's a certain Zen aspect to doing it. Even with the frustration of how it just gets harder to thread a needle as I get older.


canyonwalker: Hangin' in a hammock (life's a beach)
I had given serious thought to a weekend vacation in Phoenix this weekend. The idea was Hawk would fly out to join me on Friday as I finished up my days of sales training. We'd stay at a hotel with a lazy river for a few days and also do some hiking while in town— maybe at Camelback Peak. Well, we decided not to a few weeks ahead because it seemed like the schedule was too crowded. And this weekend I'm glad we decided not to— though not because of schedule.

At first I was glad we decided not to go because the high temperatures in Phoenix this weekend are 100°. That's way too hot for going hiking, especially on a strenuous trail like Camelback. Though I guess we could have just stayed at the hotel all day and floated loops around the lazy river.

Today I've been glad we didn't make a mini-vacation out of it because I've been too tired to actually do anything. Today Hawk and I went out for lunch, and not long after getting back both of us were lying in bed, ready for naps. I did nap for about 2 hours. Now I'm up and I'm still too tired to do anything— including lounge outside by the pool on this warm day here (81°). I'd be disappointed about missing the opportunity but I'm too exhausted to care.

canyonwalker: Sullivan, a male golden eagle at UC Davis Raptor Center (Golden Eagle)
I've fallen back into caving. Caving, as in hiding in my cave. I've become entirely too much of a home-body the past few weeks. Since we got back from Panama on the 31st I haven't been more than 10-15 miles from home. A few days I haven't even left these four walls.

My excuse for the first week or so after returning Panama was being sick. It's understandable not to want to go out and do things when you're feeling ill. Then, while I got better, Hawk's illness(es) has/have continued. I've been reluctant to go out and enjoy the kind of outdoors-y things we enjoy doing together, by myself. And yes, the weather's been nice enough to have gone outdoors. Often "but the weather's crummy" is an excuse for staying inside in January. This year January has been unusually clear and sunny, if often a smidge cooler than normal.

Another excuse has been that I'm tired. Many evenings I'm feeling kaput by 7:30 or 8pm and ready for bed as early as 9. And on the weekends I've been content to idle most of the day.

I know that avoiding things because I lack the energy is a bit of a self-fulfilling prophecy; when I do things they often energize me. For example, on Saturday we had dinner with friends and then came back to our place to play cards. Instead of pooping out early like most nights I stayed up until after 1am. Tonight we're meeting friends in San Francisco for dinner. I hope I get the same second wind of energy from it. If nothing else I'll need it for the drive home.

Update: Yes, seeing friends for dinner this evening was fun! The drive up to SF in traffic was drudgery but dinner for 5 was reinvigorating. Too bad the restaurant closed at 9 and asked us to leave at 9:15. Dratted post-pandemic new normal.

canyonwalker: Hangin' in a hammock (life's a beach)
This has been another take-it-easy weekend, the 6th in a row. Yay. 😞 The 6th in a row of wondering if I should have gotten up and done more. Don't get me wrong; taking it easy is nice. But as I explained a week ago, after take-it-easy weekend #5, I'd benefit from not just relaxation but also reinvigoration.

So, what did I do this weekend? I watched several episodes of Breaking Bad. I watched a few episodes of Lucifer. I went for a soak in the hot tub. I voted. Hawk and I tried two new/new-ish restaurants. I'll write about those soon. But mostly I stayed home and laid about. Yay.

At least next weekend won't be a stay-at-home weekend. Hawk and I flying east to help her parents celebrate their 60th anniversary. I'll write more about that soon, too.


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